Looking for writing inspiration this morning, I found an article in my local Sunday paper by Darlena Cunha, ‘Well Off, And Then Suddenly Broke”. She who wrote about being well off in 2008 and then during the financial/housing crash in ‘08 found herself poverty stricken with new born twins. She resorted to getting Medicaid and assistance from the Supplemental Nutrition Program for Women Infants and Children (WIC) to feed her premature twins. She writes poignantly of the shame and humiliation she endured using her coupons. The stares, the pity, the verbal condemning remarks, have stayed with her for years, even after she and her husband crawled out of the hole of poverty. The line that struck me, was “Poverty is a circumstance, not a value judgement.”
Judgement and shame. How many of us have experienced this devastating dual experience and continue to experience it? People with chronic illness, people of color, victims of sexual assault, parents of children with special needs, children with special needs, the whole LGBTQ community. The list could go on and on. I hear their stories every day. My heart aches for these people with bruised and battered souls and egos. I get angry, I get sad, I feel a certain kind of hopelessness. And then somehow I am in connection with them and I fall in love with their spirit and their ability to persevere despite their circumstances in the face of such adversity. Because they experience from a therapist, someone who gets it, a flicker of hope, of self love can begin. But what if they had experienced this understanding and empathy as children from their parents?
Two things come to mind. How do we raise our children to have compassion and recognize the universality of being human? And how an act of kindness can make all the difference in the world to someone suffering.
It seems that shaming and punishing somehow became an acceptable way of parenting our children and teaching them right from wrong. Maybe because that was how we were parented. Maybe because the church taught us this. Maybe because schools and teachers taught us this. For sure, shaming and punishment have been used for ages in homes, churches and schools, all places where children are being raised.
You know what I mean by shaming and punishing, right? Examples: A mother saying to a 3 year old who wet her pants, “Shame on you!”. Statements like, “What is WRONG with you?”, “You are a disgrace to this family.” “You are naughty.” “You deserve to fail.” “You are lazy.” “You will never amount to anything.” “You are a bad boy.” Even statements like, “Get over it.” are demeaning to children. I worked with a family who came in with their daughter and were upset because she had pushed a girl, hard, in the lunch room. The parents were admonishing her and trying to teach her that that behavior was unacceptable. I asked her why she had done it (pushed hard). She told me that the other girl had followed her in to the bathroom and was peeking under the stall. And she had done that more than once. The parents were of the opinion that my client should get over it and ignore it. I was appalled by the “peeking” girl’s behavior. I responded with concern for how humiliating that was for the child in my office. Did she tell the teacher? No, that would be tattling. I comforted the child and let her know I understood why she was angry and had taken matters in to her own hands. I told her she needed help dealing with that other child and she needed her Mom to go in and talk with the teacher with my child client in hand. My little client started crying and climbed in to her Mom’s lap pouring out more stories of “abuse” by that child.The Dad later told me he never would have imagined that showing compassion in that situation could have been the “right” thing to do. He felt she needed to toughen up and not take everything so seriously. But in retrospect, he saw how comforted his daughter was and how it empowered her to speak up when someone is doing something hurtful to her. She did not have to endure that humiliation, and more by her parents. By listening and supporting her it helped her feel listened to and not shamed. The end of the story is that Mother and daughter had a helpful talk with the teacher, and it turns out the peeking girl was very troubled and got a referral for therapy herself. I talked with my client the next week about how the other little girl had some troubles of her own (i.e. compassion for her, not retribution) and she needed some help. So by letting us know, the other little girl hopefully would get to talk to someone about what was bothering her. Can you see the circle of shame here? And how we hopefully interrupted it? It does take time, but it gets at what is going on underneath.
Another case involved a sister pushing her brother over on a stool. When I suggested that the girl might be jealous of her brother and she needed a “time-in” rather than a time out, the parent protested, saying, “But isn’t that rewarding bad behavior?” A “time-in” is when you keep the child close to you for the next little while, as you attend to chores. The girl needed attention from her Mom. Attention seeking is what children do and what they need. To admonish them and send them away to their room alone only makes them feel bad, ashamed, lonely, misunderstood and sometimes more revengeful. You can better believe she will get her brother back at a later time for getting her in trouble, and she will be mad at her parents for the “punishment”. To talk with her about what happened, and her feelings of jealousy toward her little brother will help her move through those feelings.
Shame and punishment beget shame and punishment to others and to oneself. The hardest aspect of this in therapy with adults is to curb the tide of self blame, self shame, and self flagellation. We internalize what was done to us and we do that to others (including our children), as well as to ourselves. In the story of the mother of twins on food assistance, shame was rampant. To end this cycle within ourselves, we need to learn to forgive ourselves for whatever we did or did not do and understand the context, which will surly help make sense of our actions. The mother was doing the best she could to feed her babies under the circumstances. The issue of forgiveness is huge....better leave it for a later blog.
One last thought. Don’t underestimate the power of kindness. If you see a mother struggling with her child in public, or you see someone with food stamps in line ahead of you, or you see a beggar at the store, a warm smile and a nod of understanding can make such a difference compared to a sneer, or a sound of exasperation, or eye rolling, or a shaming comment. And know that your children are watching you. They learn by our actions as well as our words.
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